One of the hardest things we will ever do, is wait for the manifestation of our hearts deepest longing. I consider myself an expert in the field of "almost". Maybe you can relate?
It "almost" happened!
I "almost" had it!
It was "almost" within reach!
One "almost" etched on the wall of hope can make a person want to give up. For some, an "almost" may feel better than nothing at all. After all, it's easier to have hope for something you know is possible, because you have experienced it before. Regardless if it lived up to the hope you held it to be in your heart.
Over the last few years, I've encountered more and more people holding out for their dreams, their hopes, the perfect love, or unanswered prayer. Hours turn into days, days into weeks, weeks into months, and months into years. Nothing ever seems to change. So, wouldn't it be logical to assume that (perhaps) the desire seated deep in our hearts, is not ours to have after-all?
I've had to confront the reality of that possibility many times. And while I continue to hold out, for the promises of God to manifest in my life, I have come to believe that God never plays games with the desires of our hearts. In fact, I believe He gave us the desires we have because His intent is to show the world, through His fulfilling of our desires, how amazing and awesome He is!
As hard as it may be to believe, while we are living life in the gap (the space between where we are and where the fulfillment of our desire is) - He never gives us a desire He isn't willing to fulfill. Because everything about us (even our longings) have a greater purpose. His timing may be difficult to grasp, but He loves us to much to bless us with something that we aren't read for, that may have the power to destroy us (outside of His perfect timing).
I can assure you, that no matter how long you have been waiting, if you don't give up - if you will hold out, and hold on to trusting Him - you will see your longing fulfilled.
I've known many single men and women (including myself), who would say that they know they were created for relationship. I've known many women, who have said that they knew they wanted to be a mother since the day they were born. And I've met many others who have felt a strong calling on their life. In many of those cases, I've seen the day come where the fulfillment of their desires and/or dreams were actualized. It's always an incredible testament to the saying - "never say never".
Some have argued that maybe God doesn't want them to have it. And after being worn down by time with no visible sign that their desire could be fulfilled, they surrender their desire to the altar of logic. They hand over their faith to the demons of reason. That will always provide a compelling and believable reason why you don't (and won't) have what you long for. For many, it's most logical to drop the ball in God's court, because someone said He has all control. So therefore, He clearly controls the fate of all we long for.
If The Bible is true, and all things are possible for those that believe, then God is off the hook. Anytime we have to fabricate a story to let our faith off the hook, we are opening ourselves up to more than one lie. And when we believe the lie, we empower the liar. We are called to walk by faith, not by sight (2 Corinthians 5:7) and we are told to lean not on our own understanding (Proverbs 3:5-6). In other words, we are told to believe and let go of trying to figure it out.
There are many reasons to question God's timing. But I can't find one reason to question a desire He has given us (that isn't against His character or Word of course). On the contrary, He gives us the desires of our hearts because we delight in Him. Reception is the biproduct of seeking first His Kingdom (His desires). Which is ironic, because the desires He has given us, are a part of the establishment of His Kingdom. They are a reflection of us created in the image of Him, to reflect back to the world what He is like, and how He operates through infinite love. When He gives us our desires, He is getting His desires accomplished through us.
God looks at our heart. It is always an issue of the heart that determines the treasure found in it. Our heart is His treasure, but when He looks in our heart, do we treasure Him?
You see, it's not "either / or" with Him. It's not a barter or a trade. It isn't "you do this, and I will do that". There have been times He answered prayers that I was not ready for. That may sound like a contradiction to statements I made above, but it's not - what I received never destroyed me. Although there were a few times I thought it would. And what I had in the end was far more valuable and precious to me, than what I had originally asked Him for. And that's a good example of how I learned to trust.
Hope costs nothing - giving up costs everything.
I would challenge you not to give up! Search The Bible hard and see if you can justify any limiting beliefs that God gave you a desire that He isn't willing to fulfill. I would also challenge you to let go of your expectations of how it is fulfilled (or when). Faith is absolutely required, and trust is a must. Faith works both ways - you can believe that every moment that passes by, is a moment closer to your desire fulfilled. Or, you can believe that it will never happen - thus becoming a self-fulfilling prophesy.
I know what I have chosen. Will you hold out for what He is sending your way? Will you hold out knowing that He is able to do exceedingly and abundantly more than we have asked for?